Trying to Smile

So I’m thinking about starting Jillian’s Ripped in 30 again on Monday

I’ve done the first 2 weeks a couple of times (but of course, something always gets in the way… namely my lack of motivation).

Anyway, I was wondering if anyone has done with with bad knees? And is it manageable if I modify some of the moves?

My Weight Loss Failures, and Looking Forward

So the 12WBT has officially finished, and I’m ashamed to say I’m not one of the many success stories. I found many of the recipes time consuming, expensive, and just yuck. I found it much more difficult to come back from a knee reconstruction than I thought it would be. And I really lacked motivation. But, although I may not have succeeded at this program, I feel through the information provided in the 12WBT, the excessive amounts of research I have done on nutrition, and being forced to sit on my ass for four months, I have learnt far more than I would have had I succeeded.

I’ve discovered a few great recipes, I have far more knowledge of what (and how much) I should be eating, and I have found the drive I was lacking. I’ve realised that giving my body time to heal is just as important as pushing it for results, that sometimes the best thing for my body (and mind) is to stay in bed all day and watch cartoons (and that if you do this too often, your grades will suffer), and that an eating plan that worked wonders for someone else will not necessarily work for me. I now see that the things I disliked about my body when I was 15kg lighter were actually pretty cool, and I feel ridiculous for not appreciating them until now.

But most of all, I’ve realised how truly amazing my body is, how awesome it was, and how incredible it will be. And while I still want to lose 15 – 20 kilograms, I have started to appreciate my body not for how it looks, but for how remarkable well it functions. I don’t ever want to feel as helpless or unfit as I have for the past five months, and I never will again.

I will be fitter and stronger than I’ve ever been, and I will not do it for others, the looks on the street, or for the smaller clothes. I will do it for myself, for my body. I will do it to be the best version of myself that I can. I will do it because not being able to sucks, and I won’t waste the opportunity to achieve something great for myself. And most of all, I will do it to reward my body for taking good care of me these past few months, for healing my injuries and setting me up for success in the future.

Attention to all my lovely fitblr followers!

On my other blog (http://shrinkingimpossible.tumblr.com), I will be posting the majority of my fitspo stuff.

I will also be documenting my journey as I complete the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation program.

So join me over there if you’re into that sort of stuff, or if you want to laugh at me as I struggle through some killer workouts!

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Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation

Hey Guys!

I’ve signed up for Round One of Michelle Bridges 12WBT (Feb ‘13), and will be blogging about this experience on my other blog (shrinkingimpossible.tumblr.com).

There I will be tracking my progress, posting intake, talking about the pros and cons of the program as they come up, and giving my honest opinion of the program - both day to day, and overall.

So join me over there if you’re interested in following my journey! I’d love the support!

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x

So I decided it was time to become accountable for my weightloss.  No one knows I’m doing this, so it’s really hard to stay motivated.  So I thought you guys could be my conscience!!

I’m following a post by curvecreation about motivation (if you’re struggling to begin your weightloss journey, go to her tab Just Getting Started?, it’s great).

The first step it to identify your reasons for wanting to lose weight.  This was hard for me, because while my weightloss reasons have been about how other people see me in the past, they’re not really about that any more.  They’re more about how I feel when people see me.

So, what I plan to achieve by losing weight:

- to feel comfortable in my own skin.

- to not have to worry about whether I look fat in what I’m wearing.

- to not have to worry if my top or shorts ride up.

- to reduce eczema on legs, hips and arms (a weird one, I know, but eczema sucks)

- to be able to wear clothes I bought years ago (which were too small then anyway)

- to not have to worry about how I look when I wear strapless dresses.

- to be able to look in the mirror and not hate what I see.

- to not have to worry when my photo is taken.

- to not have to untag photos of myself on Facebook because I am ashamed of my body.

Some of my reasons are strange, I know, but they are real worries for me, and things I would like to change.

Another post to come soon about unhealthy eating habits and goals.

xx